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This is my story. I gave my first attempt in 2020 and failed the prelims. The second attempt was in 2021 and I failed at mains. Post the result in march 2022, I had some issues with my mental health and someone advised me to read hanuman chalisa for help. I wrote my third attempt for mains in 2022. I had faith I would clear it this time, but I missed it by 50 marks. Yet, I won a Gold medal in Architecture on 30.03.2022. From December 2022 till April 2023, I kept working on my mains preparation. I thought I would clear the prelims with one month of preparation but I failed prelims in my fourth attempt (28 may 2023). Ever since that day, I’ve lost confidence, I’ve lost purpose in my life and I feel like a nobody. I’ve shown my answer copies to various Teachers at the coaching classes and they think I can get a rank. I’ve grown up each day worshipping in the temple with my mother. Durga maa has always been there for me and the past year, my mother was posted at Rewa where we ardently worshipped Hanuman ji in the form of Chirahula Nath swami ji. But ever since, I’ve had the shock of a prelims failure in the 4th attempt after having cleared it twice before, acceptance came late. Nevertheless, I kept working towards a better preparation and tried to organise and structure my preparation in a different manner in a very pragmatic manner. On someone's suggestion of a weak debilitated Jupiter, my mother remembered that my maasi once kept 16 Thursday fasts and I religiously did the same. One day, a priest of Vrindavan visited our Indore government accomodation and suggested I visit Shiva temple on a daily basis and continue to do so. On 19.01.2024, at 8:48 am, I filled the Civil Services form for the fifth and to my understanding, the last time. Sir, I don't want to lose again, I want to give it my every bit and I need you for it. Before I go further, I also wish to share the other side of the story. If you remember back in 2014, there was a case of a woman judge in MP who had resigned due to sexual harassment by a HC Judge. I am the daughter of that judge, i was in class 12 when that happened and I was an eyewitness, i also had to change schools in mid session of my class 12. I was in no school for 7 days. I struggled with her day and night managing between my college and drafting things for her case. We fought for 7 whole years to get her reinstated with seniority on 10.02.2022. To everyone's dismay, she was tortured by the High Court with a 6 months rigorous training, which she had already taken in 2011, and not being given her true seniority till date. Contrary to the SC Order, over 32 people junior to her have been superseated to Super time scale. No one is able to help her. She is an academically acclaimed judicial officer whose judgements are taught in the academy to other judges, whose name is in everyday newspapers, yet she gets left out. why? She is now posted at Indore, MP as Principal Judge, Family Court, Indore and I am her sole partner in the everyday struggles. I have come to believe that until her career is sorted, mine has no chance. Now, I write this mail to your good self to seek career consultation and guidance.Day of next prelims: 26.05.2024 Mains exam Dates: 20.09.2024-22.09.2024, 28.09.2024-29.09.2024

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