About The Native Concern:

I need serious guidance for my life but cannot afford you ,so writing an email if i can get help. Iam suffering from depression and confusion. Born in poor family, having wild dreams , lost always in own world. To much ups and downs in life Did many things but rejection and failures always. Worked for 10+companies in ICT,Business sector from age 18 with unstable mindset and optimism for learning & learning. When spirituality hits me time and again from 2018,always my mind go crazy and start seeking another dimension of life and i quit materalistic life totally. Connected with many spritual gurus ,done many practises/sadhanas but on my own way modifying many times, tried to learn astrology,yoga and all stufs and explored on my own but couldn't suceed in spirituality too beside expanding perception. Now after recent strong inititaion iam too much obsessed for sanyas and just thought my eyes got opened. I dont know it is my mind game again or ?, iam at nowhere now and searching for peace and purpose in life. My ego shattered in a big way now and i couldn't know what to do with my life. Can you guide me what will be the best thing to do for me now , Should i go for exploring world through sanyas or time will just hit me again like previous states and bring me back to materalistic desires . What should i do ?

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