About The Native Concern:

I don't know what's happening in my life and where it is going.But I can clearly understand that everything is happening for a reason.The karma I bear in this life is very intense and it's started to show its effect upon me, It is getting hard and it's hard for me to tolerate pain. In 2021 I fall in love with a girl who was playful, very young in age and we had some small conversations for few months. Later I came to know that it's in her nature she wants boys to fall in love with her not all of them but those she likes or those who wants to fall for her. She said yes to me and at the same time she was speaking to someone else showing same or more interest than me. Since I found that she was not loyal I said it's better to part ways. Initially she seemed to not accept the breakup but we parted ways. The love connection was not that much deep and true. So it was easy for me to come out of it. We belong to a spiritual group which allows us to pray and serve lord Shiva and his devotees. I met her there. I thought to live a spiritual life like this I need to find some partner who should have the same likes of me, allow and support me to do what we serve. That's how it all happened. I saw her there, she was attractive and she had good helping tendency. I admit that I loved the looks of her but it was both (looks and purpose - a good support for me to serve lord Shiva and his devotees till the end). She started to spread this information about me and her within the group playfully. All the love messages I sent to her she took a snap of it and showed to her friends and people who were in the same age as hers even after we parted ways.Guru of the group came to know about this. We have this way to ask God like how we write in a small piece of paper, place it in front of God and take anyone of it after praying. This way when asked about this, the blame fell upon the girl. She was asked to not come to the group.She left.But later she was called by guru on numerous occasions but she never showed up. Her problem was me and only me. I am the reason she never showed up to the group on every Sundays. 1 and half years passed. I focused on doing spiritual activities, never felled in love with anyone again. Few things come in my dream.Few things happens as I see in my dreams.This way I saw her in my dreams (I never thought of her after we got seperated) which made me to think of going back to her.This time I formally spoke to my guru and asked guru to check the girl's family if they're willing to give their daughter to get married with me.They took few days time later they said that their daughter needs to pursue her education.This was her parent's reply. I was eager to know on how the girl would react to this. So I went to her social media account and messaged her.She seemed to be shocked and she said that she can't beleive that I came back to her after a long time.I went to her house like I went to her city for some other work. We planned to meet eachother and after we met together went to her house. They served me with dinner.But clearly I came to know that her mom was not interested to give her daughter to me.The girl started to act suspicious again and she ignored me not because that her parents rejected me.She said she felt like having a double mind.I believed that she might have fell into relationship with someone else since she was doing her college and she acted in such way.Ignoring my messages and calls.I felt ignored and stopped texting her. 8months passed I nearly got engaged with some other girl and in someway the girl whom I loved came to know this.She came back texting me that she failed to understand me. I beleived her and I took her with open hands.Cancelled the recent engagement which was planned. Texted her few months. But again I got fooled. She would say yes sometimes and say no that her parent's won't agree to this. We had some physical touch this time. I can't forgive myself. I all the time thought of staying loyal to that one girl whom I get married in future but everything fell apart now. I thought she was the one.It was normal for her. But it's a big thing to me.I did something wrong. Like always, I suspected her loyalty. I checked with the people in her college which made her angry and she left me. I felt guilty for this one thing alone. I should have never told anyone about inside and outside of our relationship. But I did. I don't know what I am going to do now. Even though she hid many things from me and acted a good girl now I have become the bad guy for trying to know about her to see her loyalty towards me. I fear after looking at the placement of my 7th lord that my marriage life would fail. I need to know if I get the love of my life, will we stay together till the end? Or the divorce separation would happen? I am emotionally disturbed now.I need to know what's written in the stars for me.I plan to accept my fate, I need to know what's there for me. Will you please help?

Native Chart Highlight:

MARRIAGE / RELATIONSHIP /MATCHMAKING,