About The Native Concern:

I need your help sir. I haven't even started writing yet and there are tears in my eyes. I am going through the worst anxiety phase ever in my life right now... Well....it's been four years now going through it. But ab it's taking its toll on me. My thoughts, my mind. I'll go insane agar Aisa hi chalta raha toh. My chest is always heavy... carrying so much emotional baggage. So much carrying with itself unnecessarily. It sometimes feels sab khatam ho chuka hai and theres just one solution - SUICIDE. Ive lost my friends, my happiness , my peace , my health, my everything. I ve completely lost myself! I am lost sir I am lost. Please help me. You are my last hope. Fear, constant feeling of being accepted, validation, zero self contentment, nothing is left of me now. There was a time when I was a confident girl, happy with herself, loved herself, always cheerful. And NOW! It's all the opposite. My pcod is celebrating its 11th anniversary now.... It's been an unwanted guest for all these years ,..eating me from the inside... Taking my youth and my beauty away from me. I hate myself! I am always on the verge of crying. It's hollow inside. Hollow! You are the last hope I have sir. Something inside me has tied me in heavy chains and kept captive for 4 years . Please help me free myself sir. I am also so much tensed about my career. I want to pursue MSc from an IIT, but because of everything I am going through its so tough to concentrate on my studies. It's getting out of my hands. I always ask hunuman ji - WHY ME???? Why MEEEEE!!!! There's no one I can talk to about all this. This sadness naaa...I can physically feel it in my stomach! Where does it come from?? I have no idea! Mera mann hota hai mai ya toh kisi train ke samne aa jau ya kisi truck ke neeche .... Or shoot myself if I had a gun RIGHT THROUGH MY FUCKING HEAD!! Sorry for the language. I am frustrated. I want to scream till my lungs explode but I can't. I want to cry till my eyes burst but I can't. Why is all this happening to me! I am fed up of all of this. For once...... Just once I want to be a normal person. I am hopeless every single day. Every moment in time. All day everyday. Doesn't matter what I am reading writing or watching. This feeling this hollow is always with me. I need answers. I am currently in relationship with a boy. But sometimes the thought that we won't be together....it just adds up to all the fuss I am going through. An astrologer told me that you'll never have friends and stay away from love marriage. Jab se ye pata chala hai tabse aur pareshaan hu. Sick and tired of all this. I beg you sir. Please tell me why am I going through all this.?? When will all this end?? Is the love marriage thing true?? Give me any remedy I am ready to do it. I am done with all this now. Ab sehen nahi hota mujhse. My career ,my physical and mental health ,my love life, my relationship with myself ! It's all a wreck right now. Please help me ! There's so much I haven't even written yet. It tough ..so tough. Below are my details. If you can spare even 10 minutes on my chart and suggest me anything it will be a blessing for me. I am writing all this to you with a lot of hope sir.

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Mental Health,