About The Native Concern:

I am a highly devastated person at this juncture of my life Nowhere i am finding the ray of light.. Seeking your help I am jobless from past 9 months, my parents are retired, my wife (marreid 3 yrs back) is the only earning member, she draws miniscule salary, somehow we are surviving This is 5th time i am being jobless in my career spanning 14 yrs, (i passed mba in 2009), totalling it to 5 yrs of joblessness I too practice astrology, started in 2015, divine energies pulled me in to this, after i lost my love of life (who betrayed me and married a NRI) lost job, and was full of questions I found, myself to be aries lagna, rahu in lagna, shani retrogade in scorpio, was in shani mahadasha, which ended in 2020 19 yrs were atrocious, but i had embraced all my hardships, kept on fighting and learning, was not afraid of shani, instead i said to him, i respect you, i will face everything you are giving me with a smile, But, now i am completely shattered, gave up, every day and n ight, i pray for my death. I have lost my elder sister due to brain stroke, when i was 19 Severe politics succumbed my career, i have been in private, also in government as a consultant (my last engagement) I am a medical device industry specialist, but anywhere i go, i still face killing humiliation, akela mai hi gaalt aur bura banta hu, aur jo actually hai, they swim out safe. I have been very caring, loving, selfless and congenial person, but i am turning opposite of it 2016-17, when humiliation went on its heights, i have created a defence system of being upfront, have exhibited arrogance and attitude in a very limited proportion and to the deserved, but with oassing time, and increasing public humiliation, it had became my nature. Despite of having specilaised skill, knowledge and avility to perform tasks, all of my manager i have worked with, had developed weird insecurities within them, and brutally targetted me I have also worked with a nefarious rahu energy driven person, who was vehemently narcissistic, knack of eating energies and give tremendous negativity in return, i was going thru saturn rahu period that time, this had pushed me to alcoholism, i habe abused it, and developed fatty liver, IBS, severe stress, many associated health problems (2018 - till date) Summarising.. I have became ultra negative these days, clueless why still happening when my shani mahadasha had ended.. Will my life be the same throughout? Will i ever able to lead a normal happy life? I am struggling since 9 yrs of age.. I am 37.5 now.. I am extinguished, totally drained.. I was very mercurial, full of energy, life, ideas, happiness, always on top of the things, Sab mar chuka hai.. Boht andar tak.. Mai khud bhul chuka hu ki mai kya hu I have no money to pay you for consultation, can you still help me.? I have an intent, will definitely add or donate anyway i can to lunar astro, once i am able to

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Helpless person, seeking your help,